thoughts

564 days.

its funny, really. how something that was once so important, someone who meant the whole world; so dear to me, is now nothing more than a stranger with tons of memories.

used to believe we could have been forever, I swear. yet time takes it's toll and everything seem so surreal. since December, I lost us. indeed

calling me cruel is so silly if you reflect upon yourself and realise who the cold hearted beast is. what happened to you?

sick of the lies
sick of the insecurity
sick of getting mad yet caring for you at the same time
sick of forgiving you countless of times
sick of feeling numb

and yet....

I miss you. but I have to refrain myself cos I cant repeat the mistakes over and over again. I'll forget us, just one day.