crash

yesterday.

caught up with monica for dinner at town like how we always do. and i think we both are somehow facing a similar situation, prolly except that she's more soft hearted compared to I am.... and that's why she could relate so well to me. the things m said were so true and even I didnt have that level of depth of her thoughts despite it being my situation. it's better not to dwell on it as I still possibly can.

foresee a bad week ahead. everything would come crashing on me. reality will give me a tight slap. all that I never wanted to face will occupy me and my soul. I'm not ready; not at all. what should I do? I rather be a coward and hide myself from all these. its too much to handle.

as the time goes by, my world will get darker.
sooner or later, this darkness will engulf me.